Grateful, i got to be!

Back home safely, with all limbs intact.
Okok, i will go into that later.

Went to school today.
Had AUTOCAD test!
Too too me!
Went to do the shift shift method, so got error.
But never mind, one test down le!
Hip Hip Hooray!
Then had DE.
Which i am already tired.
I hate two hours lecture.

Then went to Vivo to eat before heading to Sentosa.
Junejune, wk, sl and i, went to The Chicken Rice Stall. Ok,i didnt eat.
Gastric pain! Eat more, pain more.
T.T
Unlucky things always happen together.
Then ate.
I see them eat, i also hungry de lo.
But cannot, so oily, gastric will hurt more.
So tolerate!

Then ate the choco.
Hehes.
Then headed to Sentosa.
We took the Sentosa Express which is the "train".
I love it!
So cool!!
Hehes.
3dollars admission too.
Hehes.

We went to the beach there(*duh*).
Played around and stuff.
I love the beach!
I love the beach!
Hehes.
Lying down there, is the best relaxation i can have.

Was playing around.
I realized something about myself.
I am ok with whatever is done to me.
Well, that means "wan de qi" to some people.
But then, there is this one word that i can never tolerate.
I get angry, but not with the one that said that, i am angry with myself.
I just don't care if it's a joke or a plain remark, i am just angry with myself for giving that impression.
Never mind, over le.
Hehes.
I sat at this bridge there, lying down.
The best i can ever have too.
The sun shining brightly.
The cool wind.

Thinking about anything that can be thought.
Thinking whether, i really felt what i felt.
If it's true.

Soon, one by one,all came.
Got fishies!
Fishies!
Small lil silver fishies that reminds me of Ikan Bilis.
Hehes.

Then left the beach.
The water in the beach is freaky.
Why? There is this constant needlelike prick at some times.
Pain lo!

Then went to change and bathed.
Tired! My skin hurts like hell.
Pain! Then gj in a hurry.
So we gotta rush.
He have to have dinner with his family.

And i tell you, i never felt worst!
I am totally shocked with what happened.
And i am angry, of cox not angry with him, just with myself.
He is in a hurry and i am kinda like slow in climbing up the lorry.
Barely sat down and the lorry drove, and junejune is still not up the lorry.
I am "dangling", ok not that bad.
I only had my legs to support myself. With half my body outside the lorry.
I had the freakiest feeling. I only had my legs on the lorry.
And the lorry is still moving.
THANK GOD that wk and sl are already on the lorry.
No them, no me now.
T.T
That serious? Ok la,seems mild to some people, but the super scared pain me, is grateful lo.
Really.
Hands reached out in time.
Or i am really, wont be dead, just scratched badly.
Thanks! And i think i felt someone holding my back, junejune right.
THANKS!
Thanks so much!
I am really grateful.
I never felt this before.
This really "i owe my life to you" feeling.
Thanks!

Went back onto the lorry. My back hurt once again.
Once again~
Hurt so much, i just can't fight back the tears.
Michelle, you are really useless.
But the feeling, is really creepy.
I know, it's not serious.
It just don't look serious to me, but i am freaked out.
Freaked out.
I just can't get my mind of the short incident.
At least we got people crapping on the lorry.
The thought of it now sends chills down my spine.
No no, michelle,you dont be so weakling.
I dont want to think about the incident anymore.
I dont want!!!

Somehow,i think, i wont take the lorry anymore.
The feeling irks me.
I am afraid.
Me,timid.
A short time of less than 1min hanging.
Lotsa thoughts in my mind.
Honestly, i am so afraid that they will hold my, I am HEAVY la.
And the second thought, i just want to let go.
just forget it.
And the third thought, confirmed what i felt.
But, is it true that i felt that way.
All along i thought it was just a pure crush?
Or is it?
I don't know.
Never mind about that!

We had dinner at Khatib.
I am just afraid of getting down the lorry.
Really afraid!
Dinner was great.
The shock scare the gastric pain away.
Back now le.
Had the stingray.
Had Sotong.
Had eggs.
Had veggies(*me love veggies, no matter what!*)
Yumms.
Full Full Full!

Took the bus home. Wanted to walk home but i am tired!!
TIRED!
Reached the bus interchange.
Wanted to get water.
But my whole mind is on the lorry, opened the "door", and knocked onto my head!
And guess what, PAIN LA!
My swollen area is like so easy to get hit now!

Am back home now.
Tired!
Cannot tell meemee i nearly fell from the lorry or she will kill me.

Can i have a dog?
Hehes.
I see my friend's dog, i want la!
I want!
I want i want!

Told my friend about the lorry thing.
Sry la!
ps.
I didn't keep my promise.
I need to take care of myself.
I know.
I am.
Just that i am suay.
I need..to...go pray pray le.

Thanks June, Thanks Weikang,Thanks Shauloon.
Thanks so much!
Grateful!
Thanks!
(*i totally embarrassed myself today. And i so hate it.*)