Forgive this girl here for ranting.
But i just need to........rant.


You know, they use to say, learn to be content?
So it's hard.
So many times, i think , and i give myself prep talks(*which ends up into useless sobbing*).

Like i have said, as i get older, i realize the need to not be weak.
The need to be strong.
At times, i wonder why am i in my position?
I never understand why.
So many times, you will want to just forget everything.
Just let someone take your life away.

It's stupid.
How many times, i let tears flow for no apparent reason.
Just because i am tired of everything.
I am not even 18.
And i am tired of everything.
Weak?




As i look into the future, i hold fears.
Or rather, there is no faith that i can handle what is to come.
Remember teacher talking about harder and more complicated DE stuff.
And i just so want to give up on everything.
Even i fear giving up~
Dang~

Reading my stuff.
Looking at maths.
The thought of giving up is tempting.
I envy.
I tried to love maths.
I tried to practise.
But it's never successful.

So tired!
I am such a weakling!
Ar!!!!
Hate such blog entries.
JUST DONT READ THEM.
I just want to organise my thoughts though they aren't of good use.
Everything comes to me, in such a complicated way.
I just want to cry till i go blind.
I just want to scream till my voice is hoarse.
I just want to jump till my legs break.
I just want to laugh till i drop.
I just want to be myself on my own.

But so what~
Like i can do them all.
Afterall, LET's FACE REALITY.
Even if i can't accept it, i got to.
T.T